@Konrad, There is an 85% chance that we are moving to Arizona next Summer.
Speaking of the move I feel I should talk more about how I feel about it. Do I want to move? I feel as if I have no other option. We as a family have out grown this place but I was the first one to really get the small town blue. Moving to a bigger town seems so applealing: a new start, bigger school, and more people. But it seems so terrifying at the same time. I've lived in one place my whole life, and its been a place where everyone knows everyone and I never felt the need to impress anyone. But a new town, of course I'll want to impress people. Now don't tell me to just be myself because this small town has offered very few opportunities to let me figure out who I am. When people ask me simple questions about myself I could sit there for hours pondering the answer. I don't know who I am, I only have a loose idea of what I like, and my style is hindered by the fact that I can't get out of the house without feeling fat. I'm one of those people you could easily forget, if you even noticed me at all.
Just to let you know, there will always be people who remember you. You're always important to at least one other person in your life - don't you think you've positively influenced at least one person in your life?
ReplyDeleteAnd on the subject of not knowing who you are - I actually think moving to a new place is the greatest way to figure yourself out. My transition to college allowed for a great opportunity for me to recognize my likes and dislikes, my interests, and my positive and negative points. I wish you the greatest luck! Have fun!